I can't believe how crazy all of this has become; I am actually doing this.
This has been a long journey for me, letting go of expectations and embracing the uncertain.
This summer I had a real quarter life crisis. I realized that I had been spending all of my time and energy almost doing what I truly wanted to do. It's amazing that I went so long being satisfied and content but not feeling truly excited or passionate about what I was investing all of my time in. I dabbled in retail, merchandising, styling and event planning and told myself that I was happy. I had great jobs and I was actually getting paid to be creative, how often do those kinds of opportunities come along?
I was happy, I was satisfied, but not deep down on the inside. I even remember telling my friends that it was ok that I wasn't getting paid to do what was really in my heart, at least it was something I liked. My practicality kept winning over the small voice inside that kept saying "close, but not quite".
Earlier this summer when I was at church and the speaker was talking about dreams, all of a sudden I was overwhelmed with emotion, but had no words to explain what was going on. All I can say was that my heart felt sick with every dream that I had let go of. It was then that I realized that the only person who had been saying no to this dream of starting my own fashion line was myself.
I came home and decided that I was actually going to do this; I was going to put myself out there for the world to see. I said no more to all of the negative voices inside and pushed through into dreaming again.
I have a few ideas of where EMLEE is headed, but I am excited about the journey. The truth is I am never going to have everything figured out, I am never going to be perfectly prepared, but I can take it one step at a time and one day at a time.
That's how I'm doing this, one day at a time.